Waking

Watching people in line
waiting
it's early
the world slowly unfolds
into morning

Hardly a smiling face
stupor
it's early
eyes adjusting to day
taking it in

And those who look happy
shining
out of place
others frown in envy
much too early

TGIF?

I guess I'm happy it's Friday. Being relatively unemployed with a part time job that has hours all over the place, aids in not knowing what day of the week it is! Currently, I'm listening to a group out of Sweden called Lizette&. Have been following them for a couple of years now. The music is quite unique, some rock leading towards industrial. The lead and group founder, Lizette von Panajott is a very talented and creative artist. I am glad to have met her acquaintance on line. She is a cool chick! :)
Check out the band's site (2 new and VERY unique musicians just joined the group): http://www.lizetteand.com/
So after a couple of days of being depressed and feeling like my life was really going nowhere - I have picked myself back up! YEAH! I have decided to stop looking for a full time hospitality job and refresh my culinary skills over the next few months. Food has always been my passion - even childhood memories that are clearest to me, have something to do with me and food. I'll still hang on to my part time job and am applying to Second Career - a government organization that pays tuition for people who have been laid off and are looking to study a "second career" in order to help them to get back into the work force. It is a great program and would help me immensely, as I couldn't pay for the course otherwise. So I am carving a new path for myself - pardon the pun! It's a bit scary, as I'm no longer a young grad. I have adult responsibilities, payments and money I need to save for my old age. But I am truly excited about this opportunity. I am hoping to have my own business in a couple of years...private catering maybe...something where I can be unique and creative, please people and stay exclusive. I want to do whatever the hell I want to do and have people pay money and enjoy it! I'd love to meet Gordon Ramsey one day - maybe even get a chance to work with him. There are many other things I want to do, and courses I'd like to take in order to reach my goals. After all, there's nothing really stopping me, except myself, right? Have a great weekend guys and check out my YouTube site:http://www.youtube.com/user/itsthebean

Today's thoughts....

It's been a while....a long while..I've been spending most of my "spare" time vlogging on youtube. It's fun and this way people can see my beautiful face! - ha! But alas, I do enjoy writing so that is why I'm back here today. I'm feeling kinda sluggish this morning. Not sure why - could be the muggy weather outside and the fact that even the sun is hiding. I'm off to a friend's for a "girls' lunch" - out on the back deck with some ol' high school buddies. I offered to bring appetizers - but had no time to make anything last night so I thought I'd go to the grocers and by something pre-fab this morning. But as I was draggin' my ass this morning...then I thought about what food items I did have at home and managed to conger up some baby shrimp and red pepper spread! It tastes really good! So I made some mini-sandwiches with the spread and some arugula. Hope the girls will like it! Now, I'm off in a frenzy to buy a confirmation present for another girlfriend's daughter. The event is tomorrow morning. So I'm off to the jewellers in search of a necklace with something like a butterfly pendant. Hope to find something not too expensive, yet elegant looking! Not too sure what time I'm getting home this evening...but I need to get some exercise in. Haven't had time to do any in a couple of days and I'm feeling very guilty! Ok, off I go! Peace xo

As I looked down at the river
Its muddiness raced past me
With thunderous sound
Full-force and purposeful

I almost wished the waters
To carry away my fears, my worries
Away with the currents to somewhere
Where I'd never see them again

I wanted my broken spirit to be cleansed
Cleared of all the pain and bitterness
To be set free again, living and roaring
Like that river in Spring.

Dream Wheels

Ok....it's only a dream...but WOW...take a look at this one. This is the Mercedes McLaren SLR Stirling Moss edition. A pure racing car. The design, the contours...this is a gorgeous, sexy car (even with the plaid upholstered seats).
If I won several million dollars...I might be tempted...but only if I could use it for what it was meant to do. Drive FAST. *sigh*. And then, I'd probably be too afraid to drive so fast....but hey, it's a dream....